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Bookworm virus got my ass

07.05.26 mood: tired and sick

Hi computer!! I'm kinda artistically stuck right now, didnt create too much this week. I'm spening some time returning to the books.
I've read [[short political book]] and started 'steal like an artist' by Austin Kleon, i guess i already think a lot of what in this book? well, i guess those ideas arent really "original" (imagine a joking voice tone here).

The interest in reading returned after i bought some books! they are: The Metamorphosis (Kafka), The Art of Being Right (Schopenhauer), The Art of War (Sun Tzu), and The Prince (Maquiavel). Man this list sounds like i'm trying HARD to be edgy, i'll just put a photo of my Youtube music recomendations for maximum contrast.
Not really a big fan of fiction books, but the 'The Metamorphosis' cover was just sooo cool! (Brazillian cover btw your english cover are probably boring)
Eventually i'd like to have a cool "reviews" page similar to this blog, it sounds like like such a good way to make myself spend less time scrolling, another good reason to make a personal site (wink), i'll use it to force myself to analize art beneath the surface ( i'm pretty bad at it :/ )

While i'm banished from the creative realm i'm thinking about what to print (on my 3D printer) and designing some (88x31) buttons for this goofy site. I'm thinking: on the left is a colorfull bar (obviously because i really like my navigation bar) and on the rest of the sprite is me making the CHAOS symbol in the hand.
The idea is make at least 3 and let people choose what they think is cooler. I'm thinking make one that is just Ruka and a funny text (like those old buttons i keep finding on the indieweb, "learn to talk to your computer with this simple trick" or something. And one that is unhinged like "Accept chaos and win a free ps2".

TLDR; books are great and they saved my house from a big scary monster.

Redesign considerations

29.04.26 mood: sleepy;

Hi. Hi. I'll make this quick because i spend all day watching witch hat atelier and its dark. My site is kinda ugly, obviously i'm not a site maker professional but considering how much i like UI its a shame.

Look at that screenshot on your left!!! One thing i think makes my site uglier is how much i try to make it work on diferent screen sizes. If you only care about one size its easier to polish it (this is why most indieweb sites are like that), the current About and Ruka pages are a good example of this, usable on every screen size, but ugly on all of them.

Just to take a little bit more space i'll mention that i need to make some of the "guides" under that to-do list. It shoulnt be very hard, just not on the mood rn.

So on your left is the plan. Name of the game, 50 word max paragraph, them 4 little squares that you can click to skip to where you want to go. (On the left bottom) you can see 3 squares and a blank one, and on the right (bottom) i included some for the Noita page, thats very bad aswell.

The way i want to make those (Resources) pages are similar to the Android Arts art site, where they write a bunch, them put some 'concept art' and repeat. I'm starting to feel confortable with sketching on digital so that should slowly work. Instead of making all on the same day i think i'll just embrace the 'forever in development' tittle and add slowly to my pages.

Anyway boring chunk of text goodnight computer XD

"To be copied is to be loved"

27.04.26 mood: inspired; Listening to: Undo U - Ninajirachi;

I've aways had this heartwarming feeling after noticing someone copying me, "imitation is the sincerest form of flattery" they say. We as humans are designed to copy each other behavior, and we do this without noticing, usually from those people we connect (friends and family).
I hadn't had that many friends over my life so its aways a surprise to me. "I made a diference in their life", i think as i try not to make a silly expression. Is generally something like copying my 'stock phrases', out-of-date slang or 'technically correct but socially awkward' word usage, so simple, but it feels like a soft compliment.

If your friends aren't copying you in any way, ask yourself why. In retrospective this would prevent most of my heartbreaks.

An alternative way to describe this idea goes like: "I'm a museum of everything i've ever loved", of course fliping who is copying who.

As an artist is important to say this isnt a licence to plagiarism because its oposite of the essence of art, use art as inspiration and artists you admire as a north to where you need to improve.
Honestly i think that embracing this idea made me a better artist, because you need to be unique and genuine to inspire others. And to be honest, i do try to carve my corner in the internet in the most authentic way i can because i dont want anybody to think i'm copying their work. Even though i would love to see people copying mine.

well, anyway. Its nice to have a place to write my thoughts, i've spend all day thinking about writing this. Looking forward to tomorrow, i'm plotting some cool topics.

26.04.26 mood: bored;

hi! so you scrolled to the first one, i hope its because the others were interesting.

recently my new microphone arrived, this means i finally dont have any excuses to not practice my conversational english. I'm doing this by entering the unnoficial factorio discord, sucks to need to enter that site but at least is active! Having something in common to spark a conversation makes it easier to me and hoever is lucky to stumble upon my broken english.

Random mess added for scale.

Anyway i wanted to make a blog because i saw some cool sites. Beeku's one in particular has a very interesting blog, i wonder if mine will end up cool looking like theirs or like Android Arts one.
I think the "digital scrapbook" vibe is so cool, makes me wanna create more.

I'll just put those photos here because i can: