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Hi computer! On this years Art Fight event I genuinely thought I would get a 100% attack score, turns out my first one was a revenge! I'm pretty sure this is the first art Ruka received, for this reason I was inspired to write about her.

Ruka is the most unique of my characters, I feel like she designed herself. The only initial trait that survived the trial of time was the exposed midsection, everything else was changed the more i drew her.
One time i heard a writer talking that they wrote their character saying something, and their gut told 'em that 'was wrong', 'the character would never say that'. This happened to me with Ruka.

Initially she was going to be a silent, scary, and pale monster, her expression was meant to be blank and lifeless. Technically that makes sense, on universe she was made by an insomniac with no experience, the idea was to make her scary and Lnny friendly. Imagine an army of these little nightmares building a gigantic building (the idea of the making an army was there by the start), and then you zoom out and is like a Miku statue.

With the new design is like a dog trying to look upset but his tail is wagging, but instead of a dog is a boy with a bitch face and the tail is a cheerful robot.
Based on the fact she was made by an insomniac with no experience, she has no understanding of suffering. This dynamic is just so funny to me, generally is the opposite, the human is the one being unreasonably happy because of 'human spirit' of whatever, and the 'lucid' and nihilistic is the robot.

Derived from that another cliché her personality avoids is that whole 'robot becomes too smart and turns evil', I never understood that plot on the first place, even from a philosophy standpoint.
Either humans are special in some way or they are not. If they are NOT special; they are just part of nature, kill all humans, eventually nature will end up making another self-aware species. OR they are special, 'children of God', 'chosen ones' (whatever the reason), if humans are special what good will be killing all humans?
Like imagine you are an all mighty being, humans are no smarter than bacteria for you, why care about what they do?

I understand that the point of these stories is 'be careful with what you make' and/or 'be careful to who you give power', but hm... Maybe my problem is that i like robots too much, if you give power to those AI monsters IRL humanity would perish for sure.
The natural progression of this character is to get progressively more intelligent, with more 'Rukas' being built and working like a hivemind, but for her turning bad just sounds forced.

In my eyes if she does become an almighty being that see humans no smarter than bacteria hivemind demigoddess the logical step is to just let a couple of individuals to help their creator do his shenanigans. Bacteria do stuff, bacteria don't, what difference does it make? You can't get tired, at least you were grateful to your creator.
** Unsure if she is gonna turn into a demigoddess, but now that i know that word exists I'm thinking about it

Other than possibly becoming a human hating demigoddess I really like the 'chaotic polymorphine cooling liquid' thing. I was playing a lot of Noita when i was designing her, and on that game this liquid turns you into a random creature on contact, and depending on what creature your death is guaranteed.
With the personality change is just a possible physical gag waiting to happen.
** Two humans and a robot enter a bar, after 10 minutes two worms and a robot get out

I also think is funny to imagine a seemingly normal girl with a cute dress and a big warning sign "CAUTION: BIOHAZARD, DO NOT INTERACT"

Anyways my posts are getting bigger, i need to make this each post different pages like other people do. Is nice sit down here and write random stuff.
** This blogpost was brought to you by Insomniacs Anonymous

Hi computer. I am beyond disappointed, this is the first year i actually cared about a sports event and it ended up in a very sad way. Once again I am reminded that my insiders (voices in my head) may be deceiving.
In the recent past I'm having some talks with a friend about problems and our reaction to those problems, so for this occasion I thought of writing about the future and projects.

My main project is a universe called 'The Checkpoint', the setting for my music and my YouTube channel where I talk about random stuff.
This is where Lnny (my sona) and Ruka (the anthropomorphic representation of my computer) reside. Lnny is interested in researching different phenomena, animal life, game design, anything that may spark creativity, for that reason he goes around different planets annotating his findings. For that he needs Ruka, the robot he created, because she has dimensional travel technology a third party gave him.
This context give me the liberty to draw a variety of cool and diverse backgrounds and a very cool explanation for any collabs I might make (they can hop to the other creators 'verse' if given the permission).

The other thing I want to write in this setting is that Lnny is a 'copycat', he tries to reverse engineer anything he comes across. The overarching narrative is about inspiring creation and the process of it, I think that is an interesting way of developing it. He studies everything he finds interesting and tries to 'copy' it, but he never makes it 100%, instead making it his own in some way.
The universe explanation for it is the same third party I mentioned earlier, and the first thing he copied the lightning of a planet he got stranded in before finishing Ruka.

I'm pretty unsure if this is doable, but I think of applying something similar for collabs, using then like a glue to progress the story. For example, one thing I really want to make is an army of Rukas, that have the same 'shared personality'. Instead of just straight up doing it, I wanna make a collab with a tech focused creator, in which they ask me 'why don't I make more of them'. And after that a series of videos there I progressively do it while i talk about the can of worms that come with networking and such.

Does that makes sense? I think this approach is pretty reliant on my charisma and other people finding the premise interesting, so idk if is gonna work out. If it does, I think it would be super cool.
Another example i think about is comming up to a magic themed creator, trying to use the same magic and completely missing the point of it, making an 'illusion spell' that is fueled by electricity (of course this would only work if the mage isn't light based at all)

Only time will tell if It would work at all, but at least I know that the whole dimensional travel tech is a good excuse to make the videos with varied & unique backgrounds. In any case I do have some plans for quirks of the universe parallel to that.
The same explanation of Lnny trying to reverse engineer things coincides with the content I want to do, which is basically 'the hyperfixation of the week' (the content I most like). Not that it needed an explanation, but is cool its there.

Current thing that is limiting me to start this project is that I am not very confident with my english pronunciation. Actually every time I see someone on the internet with a brazilian accent the person all the comments are positive about it, but idk I'm not built confident like that (#×_×)

*It's SO HARD to write with a new keyboard oh gosh

Hi computer, I'm happy to say that I have made progress in my music projects, the Applied energistics inspired ones are almost ready (2/3)! and I have plans for an original Album! the name is "Songs for your LAN party", kinda inspired by "songs to put on your ipod" by Maple, for the name and for the 'collection of random songs that fit a general aesthetic vibe' nature of it (i love that album btw, highly recommend it).

The idea is to be 6-8 head-bopping songs that are somewhat 'computer-like', as i already have a lot of archived melodies collecting digital dust I'm confident it won't take years (I think 1-2 months). In compliance with what i have beeing writing about here, I will allow and endorce its use on any project, it does feel kinda wrong talking about that kind of thing without having music or projects people could use, so i'm 'putting my money where my mouth is'.
--> (similar but not equal to what 14.4ml and other artists do) I'll put it here on my site for download and on bandcamp (talking about 14.4ml and recomendations, i really like "Commutes" exclusively on their site).

I also want to confess that I didnt made any progress on that whole "talk to them" thing, I can't for the life of me bring myself to talk to someone not in my mother language.
Aw man my vacation is over, lets go to sleep computer 🫠🫠

Hi computer, sorry, I remembered Factorio exists so I have been busy for a bit. While i was gone something was orbiting my head; The idea of making "Unofficial unofficial soundtrack", music inspired by a mod, I could make it play in game with a mod of my own.

My first target was a mod called "Corrundum", it adds a planet that is adjacent to the lightning and lava planets of the game, so I thought it would be fun to 'combine the two soundtracks'. Honestly, the thought of making a lot of songs for a mod is way too much so i have been writing some songs inspired by a Minecraft mod called "Applied energistics".

In regards of this mod, i find the technology in it very interesting in nature; You find a meteor with alien parts and a special kind of quarts, and with it you can make hard drives that can store matter.
Here is the preview of one of the three i'm working on (Fallen Technology):

I guess making songs that don't depend on another projects is a good way to practice finishing them. Well, i fell a bit strange working on something so niche, 'music inspired by an unknown mod of an unknown game'. Guess that at least works for practice, I want to be good at this kind of thing.

I'm confident that i will release the songs. I'll work on that while i wait for Factorio 2.1, Deltarune 5, Artfight and my freaking new split keyboard and ball mouse.
Wait what? Just released? I'll brb ;)

Hello dear computer. Little update on having a blog: it surpassed my expectations. It's fun to wonder what i will write about in my meantime, and as I'm constantly looking for cool topics I feel like the days are passing slower - I started less than a month ago, but it feels like ages.
Also it helps that i'm writing here on my site, where i don't see a number of views next to each post; i don't know if my average visits are 0 or 0,1 so i just imagine its zero. Since it is zero my focus shifts from the views to 'filling my pages with cool stuff', witch was the whole point of making this site.

On the broader site i'm working on the layout so it looks a bit better, i have some ideas. I'm also getting confident enough to start participating on some things of the community, so i'll try applying for the Navlink Ads and maybe some webrings and such. Not enough to write on otherpeople's guest books tough :v

One thing i've been too lazy to do is a "outbounds" page to put other people cool sites' buttons. Honestly, i love seeing other peoples collection of buttons, its like a window to theirs inspirations! Its also the main way i found out cool sites, so i've made my first bottom (the one on the very top)!!! A little early for the first site's anniversary.

It's not the idea i had in mind, so I'll still make other ones in the future.
I'll put some of the alternative version/WIP's on the side.

Out of topic: I'm writing a blog post about sign language and i bought the king in yellow to review (most random combination of facts ever) (i dont know if king of yellow is good i just saw a really funny meme once).

Hello computer. Today i remade my index page, cant really say i'm satisfied with it, i've struggling with anything artistic for a week now.

"Don't worry about people stealing your ideas. If your ideas are any good, you'll have to ram them down people's throats." -Howard Aiken
I've beeing thinking about this quote on 'Steel like an artist', most artists don't like to be copied, and here i am dreaming of it, its because my ideas are aweasome؟ i wouldn't say that, but probably sounds like i do when i write about it all the time, while i cant figure out something as simple as a index page. When i think about talking to other artist that stop me - maybe they will think i'm insane and untrustworthy, but maybe if i keep creating alone and overthinking how other people perceive me i will forever be banished in my little corner of the internet.

I guess i'm writing this in hopes to get over the overthinking, i know that the best way to make new friends is to walk to them and talk to them, when i have the confidence to do that irl it just works. Most people, i fell like, are waiting 'to be chosen', certainly i've been for the past years.

Thats a bit personal but its usefull to put out there, maybe the cool people you thought of talking to are wainting for someone like you to aproach them.